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Starting off as a child actor, graduating to a seasoned actress, then moving behind the scenes as a technician and returning to face the arc-lights… actress Sarika's journey in the film world has come full circle. Dressed in a simple cotton salwar kurta, the light-eyed actress with the "never looking back" attitude talks career, daughters and, as usual, clamps down when it comes to her ex-husband — Kamal Haasan.
You seem to be leading a simple life…
I am a very simple person, very basic. I don't like jewellery or diamonds. My biggest expense in life is books and music. Whenever I get a signing amount I immediately run to a bookstore where I spend the whole day and my girls say, 'Oh my God, now she will splurge 10000 to 15000...'
It's been quite some time since you separated from Kamal Haasan. Have you moved on in life?
Yes, of course, or else I wouldn't have been where I am today. I am very happy as I have done it on my own. An ideal or a perfect life is to have people there for you at different stages of life, but it didn't happen with me which I am okay with. This is my life and I have made the best of what I can as even today I take care of myself. I make sure that there is food on the plate. One thing nobody can take away from me is my pride. You get up in the morning, put on your makeup and you go. You thought you will never have to do all this again, but you have to do it so make the most of it. Do a Parzania, win a National award and feel proud of yourself. At the end of the day, I have to pat my back. You can't sit and brood over yeh hota toh achha hota. It has been a tough life, but in that toughness I have found myself. Nobody is there to tell me anything, I have to run my house, I am doing so for 10 years. I lead a simple yet queen-size life. Till the time I have strength and courage, I will do it and when I lose that, I will go and do kheti badi.
How come you decided to do the item number Dum Mast Kalandar in your upcoming film David?
Director Bejoy Nambiar was a bit hesitant to ask me to do the item number wondering how I would react to it. But I was thrilled because many years ago when I was young and had just started my career, me and three to four other actresses wanted to meet Runa Laila who had come at a Filmfare function. Her song Dum Mast Kalandar was a craze then. We were running from pillar to post trying to go inside and meet her personally, but we never got to meet her. We were feeling miserable about it. I never thought that I would ever be associated with the track after so many years.
But are you okay with the song being called an item number?
Mera kya jaata hai, meri toh chandi hai. Life mein jo aaye le lene ka. Earlier we didn't use the term item number, but this is not those days, I don't live in the past. Not even for a day. What is gone is gone; you look back only to learn from where you went wrong. You cannot walk backwards towards the future, you will trip and fall.
Do you discuss cinema with your daughters, especially Shruti, who is already into movies?
I discuss cinema with anybody who likes cinema. But coming to my daughters, Shruti is into music and my younger daughter, Akshara, is learning western dance. They can both be actors, but I am glad they have their own space, which is not influenced by either of their parents. It is not fair to the children to be compared to their parents all the time, as making their own identity will be difficult for them. They already have an identity and luckily, I have my own career to talk about. All celebrity parents, whose children are trying to do something, should never interfere in their space.
Do they discuss their love life with you?
No, that is their personal life.
Do you bond with Kamal Haasan for the sake of your children?
Why talk about something that is not a part of my life anymore? I don't need to talk about anyone else. My life is good enough, more than enough to talk about. Between me and my daughters, we have many interesting things to share. We have a lot of fun together. There are two ways of living life — one is to just sit where you have been pushed and not get out from there and the other is to be happy and enjoy life each day. I chose the latter.
Any regrets?
No, I don't have any. We all make mistakes, but something we do at a particular point of time was perhaps correct then. My life has always been tough. It has not been easy right from the beginning and everybody knows that. I don't want to go into details. Probably, that is my destiny.
Do you go out seeking work, or does it come to you?
Nowadays, directors see if an actor is good for a script and they come to you. I don't have to go seeking work. That is the most wonderful thing that has happened in the industry. Gone are the days of secretaries and managers, you have them managing your dates now, but they can't get work for you. All that nonsense is over. And now, cinema is so good that they will cast me even when I am 70 and grey, in the rocking role of a grandmother. Hopefully, some good guys will be there that time to play my grandsons. Then too, money will come aur tab bhi biryani ban jayegi ghar mein. Just that there are not as many good scripts as there should be. We may like to believe that we have come of age and we are giving women a lot of importance, but it’s nothing like that. Where do women get chance like the male actors? Are they giving me a chance the way they are giving Naseeruddin Shah? Scripts are still written with male characters in mind. Have a sense of security, let the women come in.
How was your experience behind the camera?
I have been in front, I have been behind and I am in front of the camera again. I have been behind the camera for 18 years, I loved being a technician. The kind of sharing and teamwork that they have, actors can never ever imagine. Taking care of each other, making sure that if one department is down, all the departments pitch in. It is a kind of union situation; we are the workers, so we stick to each other. That never happens between actors, as we are competing and doing the same thing.
Do you mingle with people and attend film parties?
Where have you seen me? I go only if very close friends from the industry are part of it. For friends, I will go anywhere, we are all there for each other. I can't name anyone and randomly say things just for an interview. These are very personal things, and they are of great value to me.
